Can't seem to crawl out of it. Nothing bad is happening...normal life around here. Normal baseball games, normal ACT testing, normal Spring flowers blooming, normal ice cream cravings, normal jobs and bills and house and pets and...NORMAL. Why am I so down?
Today I had to leave the office and get out (My boss suggested it--taking a little break)to get away from the chaos that is sometimes my job.The phone never stops ringing....the kitchen staff never has a day without drama...the parents are relentless in their complaints/worries/demands. I will never make it the twenty five years that my predecessor did. NEVER. I'll be lucky to make it the fifteen I need to be vested in my pension. There are days that I don't know if I will even make it through. Today was one of them.
And bless the teachers--it was secretary's day--and I got 3 gift cards to restaurants and a lovely lily and a rockin' mug from the principal. I'd hate to think of how my day would have been if not for those cool thoughtful things.
So I am sitting here at this computer, trying to talk myself out of opening a wine cooler--sipping on a bottle of water all the while craving a real drink. Drowning my day with alcohol...bring it on. Ha ha.
This weekend is prom. Kate is ready. Doug and I are ready to work the post-prom game room. Bring that on.
Also at this moment Doug, Zach and Kate are out test driving a VW beetle. We are about to become a 3 car family. Holy crap! My babies just keep getting older and older. Milestones keep coming and coming. Bring that on too.
Needing a little get away I think. Time to talk to the hubby about getting away just the 2 of us for a little r & r and just us time. Sometimes we just need a little recharging and I think that is what is up with me.
Glad I could come here to this place and figure it out.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Sunday, April 15, 2012
I'm thankful for....
- Beautiful weather
- the sun
- going to breakfast on Sunday mornings with my husband
- my Sunday school class
- old friends
- Land's end
- sandals
- pedicures
- knowing I am exactly where I am supposed to be at this point of my life.
- God
- Music
- Flowers
- how well my kids "think" and "do"--Doug and I must be doing something right.
- new friends
- magazines
- my animals--even though I had to clean up puke from one of them today.
- my bosses
I'm a glass half empty kind of gal--but I'm trying to be better.
Monday, April 9, 2012
It's almost over...
I can't believe the school year is almost over. I read on Facebook that there is only 5 more MOndays. I checked--it's true. OMG. I'm not ready. I don't have the awards ordered or the diplomas either. I've got to get it in gear. I'm going to be putting in some extra hours I think.
Baseball is in full swing. This week we start the Chatham league on Wednesdays. Plus we have double headers on Friday and Saturday.
Today the kids and I were off--I've been sitting around thinking about some of the stuff I want to get done this summer. I need to get the ideas down somewhere so I guess here is as good as anywhere--at least I will be able to find it when I go to get started. Ha.
Closets
Linen--shelves covered--back painted.
My--shelves covered---shoe storage rethought--add extra shelf at top. Blackboard paint in one of the inside panels--to get list?
Paper--Shelves covered--back painted--reorganize (maybe add fixed shelves to bottom portion)papers filed, magazine holder painted. Black board paint on inside panel.
Built in cabinet in pantry--shelves covered. Reorganized. Aired out.
Spare room--cleaned out. painted. add fixed shelving to side. go through clothes. Divide top shelf into 2--go up.
Coat closet by side door--re do shoe storage. Hang extra coats in hall closet (after gone through) up stairs. install shelving for "stuff". Line with hooks.
Junk--go through again. Reorganize.
Porch
Paint "Welcome to our" on the porch sign.
Buy 3 pots for red tool box--plant ivy in them.
New cushions for table chairs?
Buy material to recover pillows from England's wicker. Indoor/outdoor fabric.
Long Concrete planters for porch "steps".
"urns" for either side of door--concrete.
Yard
Concrete or painted bird bath
Gate up
Haul in dirt for around house
Order landscaping stones and river rock.
Hang lights around inside of porch.
Fix plant hook.
Wash all wicker and wrought iron.
Major trim up on most of the bushes--especially HOlly.
Pull up corner evergreen on South front corner and plant red bush.
Scrapbooking/Crafts
Kate's school book up to date. Ready for senior year. Try to decide on what to do for that--separate book--for each day? By month?
Cut fabrics for her quilt into 4" squares.
Once Kate's are up to date--work on Zach's school and sports.
Do at least 12 layouts for family scrapbook.
Make curtain for scrapbook desk.
Make pillows for couch upstairs.
Make pillows for dining room wicker.
Misc.
Shampoo dining room rugs.
Find chairs for den desk and for upstairs craft area.
Picture wall in den (convince Doug that we need a shelf over desk)
Kitchen bowl shelf down...come up with other idea for that area.
Re-do attic storage--buy more wire shelving to organize christmas. Floor in eaves for toy storage?
Glass for linen and kitchen storage cabinets (before graduation.)
Fix glass in den bookshelf. (before graduation)
Fix door in hutch that won't stay shut. Buy latch?
Back Entry:
Paint wainscotting
Paint upper walls something lighter and brighter.
New runner rug.
New curtain or something.
Curtain going down to basement--Something like what's in den--linen.
Gosh...don't think I can get all that done before summer is over. Holy moly....might be a before Kate graduates list.
Baseball is in full swing. This week we start the Chatham league on Wednesdays. Plus we have double headers on Friday and Saturday.
Today the kids and I were off--I've been sitting around thinking about some of the stuff I want to get done this summer. I need to get the ideas down somewhere so I guess here is as good as anywhere--at least I will be able to find it when I go to get started. Ha.
Closets
Linen--shelves covered--back painted.
My--shelves covered---shoe storage rethought--add extra shelf at top. Blackboard paint in one of the inside panels--to get list?
Paper--Shelves covered--back painted--reorganize (maybe add fixed shelves to bottom portion)papers filed, magazine holder painted. Black board paint on inside panel.
Built in cabinet in pantry--shelves covered. Reorganized. Aired out.
Spare room--cleaned out. painted. add fixed shelving to side. go through clothes. Divide top shelf into 2--go up.
Coat closet by side door--re do shoe storage. Hang extra coats in hall closet (after gone through) up stairs. install shelving for "stuff". Line with hooks.
Junk--go through again. Reorganize.
Porch
Paint "Welcome to our" on the porch sign.
Buy 3 pots for red tool box--plant ivy in them.
New cushions for table chairs?
Buy material to recover pillows from England's wicker. Indoor/outdoor fabric.
Long Concrete planters for porch "steps".
"urns" for either side of door--concrete.
Yard
Concrete or painted bird bath
Gate up
Haul in dirt for around house
Order landscaping stones and river rock.
Hang lights around inside of porch.
Fix plant hook.
Wash all wicker and wrought iron.
Major trim up on most of the bushes--especially HOlly.
Pull up corner evergreen on South front corner and plant red bush.
Scrapbooking/Crafts
Kate's school book up to date. Ready for senior year. Try to decide on what to do for that--separate book--for each day? By month?
Cut fabrics for her quilt into 4" squares.
Once Kate's are up to date--work on Zach's school and sports.
Do at least 12 layouts for family scrapbook.
Make curtain for scrapbook desk.
Make pillows for couch upstairs.
Make pillows for dining room wicker.
Misc.
Shampoo dining room rugs.
Find chairs for den desk and for upstairs craft area.
Picture wall in den (convince Doug that we need a shelf over desk)
Kitchen bowl shelf down...come up with other idea for that area.
Re-do attic storage--buy more wire shelving to organize christmas. Floor in eaves for toy storage?
Glass for linen and kitchen storage cabinets (before graduation.)
Fix glass in den bookshelf. (before graduation)
Fix door in hutch that won't stay shut. Buy latch?
Back Entry:
Paint wainscotting
Paint upper walls something lighter and brighter.
New runner rug.
New curtain or something.
Curtain going down to basement--Something like what's in den--linen.
Gosh...don't think I can get all that done before summer is over. Holy moly....might be a before Kate graduates list.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
It's been awhile.....
Haven't posted in a long time. Things are going pretty smoothly around here which is pretty amazing. I finally quit Weight Watchers--after a whole year I am only down 12 pounds. Not too bad, but nothing that I am that proud of. A friend and I started walking after work Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays and once we did a little cardio and weight training with the PE teacher at work. I'm liking the walking thing...need to get back on the eating right thing.
I told my friend yesterday--we are both big girls--she just happens to be almost 7 inches taller than me--my problem is I really don't "see" myself as fat. Now don't get me wrong I am fat...60 pounds over weight (at least) but the only time I have issues is when I am trying on clothes or in my swimsuit...the rest of the time I feel normal sized. When I dream...I am skinny in my dreams. Lately I have issues with my stomach sticking out--and when I see myself in pictures I don't like it, but on an every day basis I am happy. So....why in the world am I obsessed with the weight thing? And why on earth can't I get a handle on it.
I've thrown around the whole "I'm filling myself up with something I am missing in my life, my past, my childhood, fill in the blank", but anymore I'm not sure that is it. I'm very happy with my marriage, my children and my job. Our finances are stabilizing...I live in my dream home...I want for nothing (well that 640 million would have been nice...) so what exactly is my issue.
I'm going to be analyzing and reflecting a lot this summer--before my birthday in September I would really like to figure out a plan. Not only a personal one...but a professional one. I'm going to be trying to figure out who I am and what I am doing with my life...do I want to lose weight, if I do how much, what I want to do with my paycheck--save it, pay off bills, pay for Kate's college, what I want to be as a wife, mother, friend and co-worker. I would like to talk Doug into doing the Dave Ramsey thing and getting ourselves out of debt. I want to have the $950 we pay to bills every month to go into savings or a vacation club or into a house improvement fund.
I need to figure it all out...be in control by the time I am 50---figure out how to save for our retirements---I will need the beach a lot when I am old you know...enjoy life without worrying about money for the rest of my freaking life. And if I figure out the weight thing along the way so much the better.
Here's to figuring it all out.
I told my friend yesterday--we are both big girls--she just happens to be almost 7 inches taller than me--my problem is I really don't "see" myself as fat. Now don't get me wrong I am fat...60 pounds over weight (at least) but the only time I have issues is when I am trying on clothes or in my swimsuit...the rest of the time I feel normal sized. When I dream...I am skinny in my dreams. Lately I have issues with my stomach sticking out--and when I see myself in pictures I don't like it, but on an every day basis I am happy. So....why in the world am I obsessed with the weight thing? And why on earth can't I get a handle on it.
I've thrown around the whole "I'm filling myself up with something I am missing in my life, my past, my childhood, fill in the blank", but anymore I'm not sure that is it. I'm very happy with my marriage, my children and my job. Our finances are stabilizing...I live in my dream home...I want for nothing (well that 640 million would have been nice...) so what exactly is my issue.
I'm going to be analyzing and reflecting a lot this summer--before my birthday in September I would really like to figure out a plan. Not only a personal one...but a professional one. I'm going to be trying to figure out who I am and what I am doing with my life...do I want to lose weight, if I do how much, what I want to do with my paycheck--save it, pay off bills, pay for Kate's college, what I want to be as a wife, mother, friend and co-worker. I would like to talk Doug into doing the Dave Ramsey thing and getting ourselves out of debt. I want to have the $950 we pay to bills every month to go into savings or a vacation club or into a house improvement fund.
I need to figure it all out...be in control by the time I am 50---figure out how to save for our retirements---I will need the beach a lot when I am old you know...enjoy life without worrying about money for the rest of my freaking life. And if I figure out the weight thing along the way so much the better.
Here's to figuring it all out.
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