Why do I always

Question myself? Now it seems like I can't decide if this is the job I want. I am giong to go ahead and apply and if I get it then I guess it was meant to be. Most of my problem is that I have "failed" at the last 2 jobs I had so I don't have any confidence. I also can't see myself in the future. Am I going to be Pat's age and still working at the school. The money would be nice, but I don't always want to have my life revolve around money. I guess time will tell...